"If you get straight A for SPM, i'll get you one of those."
I remember every bit of that moment where Dad promised to get me a DSLR if i get straight A for SPM. He told me that right outside Copal Digital Wisma Saberkas after me, Dad and Mom checked out Canon EOS 500D. It was during the Form 4 2008 year-end holidays. That time, the camera was priced at RM3299. I was overjoyed.
Straight A for SPM? Maybe it sound easy for some of you. But for me, it wasn't. I'm not a studious person and my results are good once in a blue moon.
Dad also seldom promise stuff if i get good result. Only for public exams, he'll give me some cash if i get good result.
Cash? What significant can it do?
If i promise my girlfriend to go Sushi King and have a BIG dinner, but i didn't fulfill the promise. Instead, i gave her LOTS and LOTS of cash, can everything be solved this way?
CAN IT?
After Dad made the promise to me, I got really excited. I took out a poster of Canon EOS 500D and pasted it beside my bed. I think you can really imagine how excited i was about it.
I've always wanted to be a proud owner of a DSLR. Everything went even worse when i enrolled as the Head of Photography for the school magazine. I wanted to know how it felt having people say "Wow, nice shot!". Everytime i see people holding DSLRs, my mind itch for me to grab it from them. So, each time i have this feeling, i thought about my SPM.
SPM didn't came easy too. For the last 2 months before the exam, i burned midnight oil and did lots and lots of exercises. I quit my co-curricular activities and i stop iron pumping.
Every single day, i tell myself,
"What if i don't get good result?"
"I must own a DSLR."
Time flew, and i managed straight A in my SPM. Then i felt in love with Nikon D90, which was priced at RM4688 at that time. I got a great discount and i can get the great camera for RM3980. Canon EOS 500D went through some competition and the price dropped to RM2899.
Dad then said he'll only give me RM3000 to get the camera of my choice. And at the same time , he gave me cold treatment just because he wanted me to take study Medicine under JPA sponsorship. I can't take it any longer, so i agreed to try applying for medicine course, and Mom agreed to give me another RM1000 for me to get my Nikon D90.
Last month, Dad gave me RM2000 cash in advance for the camera. But i gave it back because i'm not good at handling cash. Then he promised to give me RM3000 23 April, which is tomorrow.
Last week, D90 price dropped to RM3688. Its the perfect moment for me to get it. So an hour ago, i aske Dad, "Dad, when can i get my camera?'
Then he started to talk about how hard earning money was, and how hard saving it up was, how low his and Mom's pay is. He even told me about my future studies and how is he and Mom going to spend for it. He questioned me about how a DSLR will benefit me in my life as a student. He asked me how many university students i know that own a camera up to this price.
The worse thing he said is, "If you don't care about Mom and me, then i'll bank in RM3000 into your bank account tomorrow. You go buy the camera yourself."
I got teary for the first time all these years.
Dad told me he will still bank in the money, but he wants me think carefully should or should i not buy the camera.
Of course i care about Mom and Dad. But when i heard Dad say that, i don't feel i belong anymore.
Dad, you promised me this. Next time, if you don't want to get me something, don't make fake promises to get me one. Yes, you gave me the money, but don't talk to me as if i'm not your son.
I don't your sir name anymore. I guess that's why you don't talk to Sis like that.
I've always wanted to be a proud owner of a DSLR. Everything went even worse when i enrolled as the Head of Photography for the school magazine. I wanted to know how it felt having people say "Wow, nice shot!". Everytime i see people holding DSLRs, my mind itch for me to grab it from them. So, each time i have this feeling, i thought about my SPM.
SPM didn't came easy too. For the last 2 months before the exam, i burned midnight oil and did lots and lots of exercises. I quit my co-curricular activities and i stop iron pumping.
Every single day, i tell myself,
"What if i don't get good result?"
"I must own a DSLR."
Time flew, and i managed straight A in my SPM. Then i felt in love with Nikon D90, which was priced at RM4688 at that time. I got a great discount and i can get the great camera for RM3980. Canon EOS 500D went through some competition and the price dropped to RM2899.
Dad then said he'll only give me RM3000 to get the camera of my choice. And at the same time , he gave me cold treatment just because he wanted me to take study Medicine under JPA sponsorship. I can't take it any longer, so i agreed to try applying for medicine course, and Mom agreed to give me another RM1000 for me to get my Nikon D90.
Last month, Dad gave me RM2000 cash in advance for the camera. But i gave it back because i'm not good at handling cash. Then he promised to give me RM3000 23 April, which is tomorrow.
Last week, D90 price dropped to RM3688. Its the perfect moment for me to get it. So an hour ago, i aske Dad, "Dad, when can i get my camera?'
Then he started to talk about how hard earning money was, and how hard saving it up was, how low his and Mom's pay is. He even told me about my future studies and how is he and Mom going to spend for it. He questioned me about how a DSLR will benefit me in my life as a student. He asked me how many university students i know that own a camera up to this price.
The worse thing he said is, "If you don't care about Mom and me, then i'll bank in RM3000 into your bank account tomorrow. You go buy the camera yourself."
I got teary for the first time all these years.
Dad told me he will still bank in the money, but he wants me think carefully should or should i not buy the camera.
Of course i care about Mom and Dad. But when i heard Dad say that, i don't feel i belong anymore.
Dad, you promised me this. Next time, if you don't want to get me something, don't make fake promises to get me one. Yes, you gave me the money, but don't talk to me as if i'm not your son.
I don't your sir name anymore. I guess that's why you don't talk to Sis like that.
4 comments:
you don't simply crap here la. after spm I wanna go dance class oso still got beaten by mummy like a i'm a dog. AFTER spm okayy..The thing is, I never demand as much as you do. I bought camera, my own money AFTER I enter uni. I bought a LOUSY phone AFTER I enter uni. All those from my own allowance. And I got RM1000 only for 9A1, 1A2. You get RM3000 for result worst than me. What you expect? Don't demand so much la...people fed you for so long dy. Want a camera, take scholarship first and save up la. U think Daddy willingly promised you mehhh...it's by force and he was pressured also kayy... if you don't have a dream, then why not try full filling other people's dream?
YOU AND YOUR SISTER ARE JUST PLAIN FUCKING IDIOT BASTARDS SARAWAKIANS! GET A LIFE DAYAKS!
to ANONYMOUS
who the hell gave you the right to judge us dayaks?
did God give it to you?
And what do you have against us Sarawakians?
If Sarawak was not in malaysia, u think this country's economy can survive or not?
honestly i feel sorry for u all the sudden because maybe you urself don't have any life at all.
You may live the easy life but you are just one sad person behind your monitor screen. You want me to elaborate more on what u like to do behind your monitor screen?
Nah.. people like you are so predictable and also immature.. A real cowardly act i should say commenting on other people's post and leaving your nonsense behind.
Plain rude and you didn't even say where you where from. ~tsk3~ Didn't your mum and dad teach you manners? Even Sarawakian mum and dads teach their children that. owwwhhh.. poor boy/girl(Bapok amybe?)don't have manners... ~sigh~ oh well, that what you get from people like him/her(bapok?/pondan?)I hope you read this and comment me back. Because life is short, and people like you tend to live shorter. Or maybe you are already dead. i can't be sure
i so understand how u feel leh. my dad also always promise me something and then in the end he never keep that promise or something like what happen to u happen to me. frustrating max.
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