Life.

My life is so messed up now.
Let's see.
-I'm the guy with the worst result.
-I'm the guy every jerk in JPA-MSU target to voice out their personal problems.
-I'm the "middle-man" of two quarreling jerks.
-I'm a fucktard who is not fit in this community.

There's times when I think quit living seems to be the greatest solution.

There's times when I think just killing someone would be the greatest solution.

There's times when I think taking drugs or whatsoever would be the best.

There's times when I think just simply bashing up those retards mocking me would be the greatest thing to do.

There's times when I say "I pray that you'll get involved in car accident" and i really mean it.

There's times when I smile at your pathetic jokes and smile but then I go to a corner somewhere then I would tremble with anger, BUT I still face your jokes everyday, with a smiling face.

There's times when I get really really heartbroken when you call me "loser" indirectly.
Oh yah, you're my lecturer by the way.

There's times when I go for consultation and counselings, but it turns out that YOU gave me so much more misery and you think you're helping by doing so.

There's times when you keep pointing me out in class like I can't do anything at all by myself and I need someone's help my whole life.

There's times when I raise my fist half way in the air already when you sarcastically clap your hand or rejoice whenever I solve a maths problem right or answer some quiz right.

There's times when I hope you realise how seriously I mean it when I show you my middle finger.

There's times I weep alone before I sleep, thinking about my life as the only normal-guy in this community of geniuses.

But there's still reasons I still continue to live on.
God, Family and You. That's all.

From today onward, I'll only live for God, my family, and you.
Nothing else.

And when I say FUCK MY LIFE, i mean it.


By the way, this is not a facebook status because I only want those closer to me to see this.